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A Big Decision

In light of the thief’s departure at work this has left a job vacancy. A job that I told, no promised myself when he was appointed that if this one failed I would apply. This it the fourth factory manager in the 5 years I’ve been working there. The first was AMAZING and I can only hope that if I get this job I do him justice. The first one taught me so much about what I do know and was very good at explaining things so that they made sense. This man once spent half an hour folding paper to show me how things would look when they are made. Best factory manager EVERRRRR. Anyway after he left (after a long and hard 8 years with the company) someone internal stepped in and unfortunately couldn’t handle the stress and when he just got the hang of things gave up. Then someone else came along who was out of his depth both with our product and the staff. Then the thief was appointed. I disliked him from day one and I think subconsciously made a vow that I would have his job. I didn’t highlight his theft to take his job, I hadn’t even thought of that at that point.

It’s in this week that I’ve really been wondering; should I? Then yesterday my friend at work text me that he and the dispatch guy think I should have that job and when was I going to talk to our boss. They harassed me (nicely) about it ALLLLL day yesterday. This morning I put on the big girl pants and went to chat to my boss. I asked if he had time for a chat and he looked very worried as usually that is the start of someone resigning haha I said I wanted to see what his thoughts were on my applying for that job and if he would consider me then consider me applying. He looks puzzled and said “I thought I spoke to you about this last time?” and I’m sitting there thinking “oh f***! That’s a no!” but it wasn’t! He said that obviously I wouldn’t want or be expected to “roll up my sleeves and jump on a machine”. As much as I am about equality for women and anything men can do I can also do I am also a realist and the machine operator roles are not something I am physically capable of simply because I don’t have the strength nor am I big enough for that! He said that the only thing he thinks I’d need work on is the Healthy & Safety aspect as I haven’t done any of that yet. But there are courses and my eye for detail is an asset for that side of things. So I have a very real chance of getting this promotion. I only told one my friend at work, said he could tell the other guy if he chose but I wasn’t going to be telling anyone else. I don’t want it known by all, as if by some chance I don’t get it I don’t want people knowing. My boss told me that the only thing he has to really decide is if he wants to take me off the path I’m on now as they are grooming me for another management role or let me take this one. I said I’d like to take this one as I want a challenge now. I want to be challenged and make use of my problem solving skills and knowledge of our systems, products, customers and staff.
The job is advertised with a recruitment company and my boss said he would discuss with them about not having a fee if he gives the job to someone internally. He said my name has been mentioned the past few times the job has been vacant and that my name has been put forward by several people time and time again. That in itself is a huge compliment. So fingers crossed for me people and watch this space. I’m excited to be considered and definitely considering the job mine as I totally believe in the power of positive thinking. I’m also excited by the thought of a company ute, phone and pay rise (not that I know what the pay is for this job) that goes with this job. The professional and personal advantages and growth with this job would be fantastic.

Have a wonderful weekend

Crazy Cat Lady xx

March

Update on the nasty girl work thing.

Monday last week was much the same as the Friday and I was away sick Tuesday.On Tuesday the office manager had a meeting with them about their internet usage, their slack work ethic and other general things they were doing they shouldn’t have been. She also told them to sort out the tension as it was unbearable for all. Tuesday evening the girls were messaging me on facebook as nothing had happened (we had a group message set up so we could chat). Wednesday I was at work for half a day but had to come home as I was still so sick. The girls were definitely making an effort which I appreciate and one of them shared with me her news that she is pregnant. I’m excited for her and was happy to have been told so early on. I can’t say I fully trust these girls now and I don’t want to spend time with them outside of work any more as if they could turn on me so suddenly for nothing once they can do it again. I was away again Thursday so someone else looked after my emails etc. I was back Friday and very busy but it was better again ,the other one was looking for a new job and I think that is why she’s been so disruptive but that shouldn’t become my issue, she’s the one with the problem with work or whatever so she should leave that behind and get on with her job. The only reason she’s stopped looking for a new job as it’s “too hard” to find one and interviews are awkward. It is funny as I hear them complaining about how busy they are etc and as I’m no longer allowed to help them so they have to stop being on facebook and trademe and do their jobs.

I’ve decided the one who was going to be leaving is the ringleader with the nasty behaviour and is the one I definitely DO NOT trust at all. After we all agreed that it was best none of the factory staff knew it was me who highlighted the thief’s actions (more on this below) she went and told the biggest gossip in the factory. He then cornered me and asked me “do you have something to tell me?” firstly I was thinking what a creep as I didn’t know what he was talking about so my answer was “no?” then he asked was I sure then I clicked to what he meant so I said to him “no I’ve got nothing, do you feel the need to ask me something?” and so the conversation went from there. I know it was her as her boyfriend who works with us also is the only other one who knows aside from the one person I consider my true friend there and the two girls (and of course the bosses). She is trying to be friendly and certainly is a lot better but there is still a nasty undertone to what she is saying and I wonder sometimes if I’m imagining it because I dislike her or if it’s actually there. Still wary and am glad when work is done so I don’t have to see her. They still send me snapchats, I reply to the pregnant one occasionally as she has actually gone back to normal and it is like nothing happened. I don’t trust her either nor can I go back to being friends with her but I do feel more comfortable with her so maybe in time I will trust her again I’m not sure. It’s not an issue for me either way.

THE THIEF.

Finally he’s gone! It’s only taken the better part of a year (since he started) to prove it but I’m proud to stay I was the one who stood up and said hey I think what he’s doing is wrong. So many people knew for sure and had proof and did nothing. I didn’t have much to go on except a hunch and that I’m not as stupid as he clearly thought I was. He still doesn’t know it was me, well as far as I know he doesn’t know it was me. I don’t care either way, if you are going to steal and be stupid enough to have paperwork showing you stole then that’s not my problem. I can’t go into great detail but my friend at work and I have been waiting and planning for a year to catch this guy out. We are so relieved the guy is gone!

The sudden departure of him has changed things though; my immediate manager has taken over that role and the guy I work with and I are not clear on whose in charge. We have been told we are a team and neither of us are in charge. Now we are quite close so we talk a lot at work and outside of work. We both are well aware that there is no-one in charge because both of us have been promised that job at one point or another and our overall manager is well aware that my friend would leave if I’m made in charge (nothing to do with me as he said he would actually quite like me to be his manager but the fact is that job was promised to him long before I came along) and we are pretty sure that the manager knows that I would probably consider leaving too if I was bypassed for this role. Which is correct. One of the main things that keeps me there when it’s turned to custard is knowing that eventually that job will be mine. I’m considering putting my hand up for the other role but I am not 100% sure. I need to carefully think about it. I also think that my immediate manager is doing it permanently. You wouldn’t take a work ute home and then spend three hours cleaning it if you were only doing it temporarily, would you?! My friend is considering leaving :( I would be quite sad to see him go, we do work well together and he’s so good at his job. It would be hard to replace him. But such is life I guess.

Time to get outside and enjoy the weekend, have a good one everyone :)

Crazy Cat Lady xx

Clarity

There’s nothing like a little clarity to knock you out of your idyllic dream world.

I’m having a hard time at work the past few days. I was always aware that the two girls I work with are quite close with each other (close than I am with either one) and that’s cool with me. They are quite similar and I don’t wish to be that close to any work colleague as it is. Over the past few months I’ve slowly learnt that the friendship I thought we had is not quite so. In December someone started spreading rumours about me at work (separate issue) and these two girls believed him over me, despite this person being a notorious liar. This was the first indicator that the so-called friendship is a little one sided.

Yesterday they went to lunch together as they usually do, again fine by me except when it’s busy and I’m left on my own but in the big scheme of things it’s not important. We get 30 minutes for our lunch break but they took over an hour. This is not necessarily my business as I don’t pay their wages, however an apology or some sort of acknowledgement that they had taken so long would have been nice. I realise now that this was probably expecting too much! Anyway as I was so annoyed by them (their spending time on facebook instead of working then passing work onto me is also another pet peeve!) I was quiet yesterday afternoon, not rudely so but just not chatting or taking part in their conversation. I had sent an email whilst they were out asking for them to remember to do something in order for me to report on an area I manage so I’m unsure if that (as I CC’d their manager in as they simply ignore my verbal requests – admittedly the email was sent due to my annoyance but wasn’t in the least bit rude as it was simply “please remember to do this so I can report”) or the quietness on my part has caused the behaviour I’m experiencing or not.

Yesterday one was right bitch – sorry but there is no other way to describe it and the other one just didn’t answer me when I spoke but at least wasn’t nasty. This morning I had gotten over myself and was starting fresh, today is a new day after all. I said good morning to each as usual, one could barely manage a response (I’m still unsure what it was but as it was the bitchy one I feel like it’s best I don’t know!) and the other ignored me. So pretty much the same as yesterday afternoon. Now I feel like I’m probably being overly sensitive as it is definitely their problem (and I am sure that my quietness contributed to their sulk yesterday); however as I work with these two girls and sit very closely to them it does make it a little awkward. There is one other person who sits near us, he sits behind me and we are quite good friends so I’m happy he’s there or it would be a quiet sad time for me! He was only recently moved there and so I’m ever so grateful.

I was messaging my Mum on facebook earlier and venting to her, nearly in tears (unlike me as I’m not a crier – it makes me angry then I cry more and become a teary mess!) and venting to her certainly helped. Now I’m finishing my venting with this blog in order to let this go and rise above.

I have this tight spot at the top of my spine where my neck and shoulders met; it is easing as I feel less irritated and more amused by the “little darlings” behaviour.

I’ve never really had friends in workplaces purely as I want to avoid this sort of awkward and unnecessary stress but I’ve been here nearly 5 years and it’s a long time to work somewhere. The other girls 1 & 2 years each but as we are all a similar age we seemed to fall into socialising outside of work. I don’t socialise with them as much as they do with one another nor do I have a steady stream of texts/snap chats etc either. I am glad that a close friend is back from Australia until Wednesday so we along with a few others I’ve not seen for a while are going to catch up this weekend plus am out to dinner with another set of friends tomorrow night so I will be well past this by the time Monday rolls around. I can only hope these other two have gotten over themselves by then too.

I normally would call someone out when behaving this way as I dislike such tension but as I said above I don’t feel like this is my problem, and as they don’t have the decency to tell me what it is that is bothering them I won’t be asking.

The moment of clarity came when messaging Mum; this isn’t my problem and this is always going to happen when women work together. Also; I’m not going to let the pettiness of others bring me down, they have no right to any space in my head so out that negative energy goes!

Rant over, I’m looking forward to the weekend and enjoying spending time with my friends.

Have a lovely weekend folks.

Crazy Cat Lady xx

Welcome 2015

Happy New Year everyone! I hope you all had a good time celebrating the end of 2014 and beginning of 2015.

It’s been quite some time since I have written here, life sometimes gets away on me and I find that I don’t have time for small pleasures like writing a blog or reading a book. Lately I’ve been reading a lot more, forcing myself to read (as although I enjoy it I’ve been cramming in serious amounts of Netflix watching) and just really relax and take time away from the laptop or iPhone.

Since I last posted I have moved house twice. The first was mid October to a temporary home with a workmate and her partner. I’m so grateful that I could stay with them and they even allowed me to bring the cats. One of my cats got along fabulously with their cat, my other cat however I believe became the victim to the other two! We now live in a small two room house which is hidden behind another (it is entirely separate) and I recently discovered I have a plum and peach tree in the backyard! It’s so nice living on my own, I never thought I would as I would have described myself as an extrovert who required human companionship. Turns out I’m not quite as extroverted as I thought and this time on my own has brought on some realisations that although I love my family and friends dearly and love the time I spend with them; that time I have on my own (with or without the cats) is SO important to me. I have a very close friend who comes to visit me frequently purely because he knows that he can come and sit and watch TV or a movie or just sit quietly and no conversation is required. We have spent an entire day in silence just enjoying the quiet yet enjoying the company. I know so very few people who can just sit peacefully in silence and it not feel awkward, or rather them not feel awkward and force a conversation. I am now a firm believer that everyone should live on their own, it’s a good way to reflect on what is important to you and the things that you value. For me; it’s that quiet alone time. And when I say quiet, it’s not! I always have the radio on so my house is never silent but it’s so peaceful and I cherish that. My cats are so much happier here, they don’t fight as much as they used to, dare I say they may even be beginning to like one another!

We have performance reviews at work every year in December and this year I was lucky enough to be given a decent size pay rise which is fantastic as living on my own is somewhat more expensive than flatting so that extra bit each month will help out! Also nice to have my hard work recognised. I got the same old “you take on too much” story then we discussed how I like to be busy and if I really don’t want to do something I won’t – I’m stubborn like that. My boss I think is well aware of my stubborn nature and generally just leaves me to get on with things. For that I am grateful as I just manage myself and can carry out my work as I see fit.

I don’t do New Years resolutions, nor do I take part in the “new year, new me” train of thought either. I do however find myself with recurring goals for each year. They change slightly as I get older and wiser; this year I am going to go back to my “no fizzy/soda, energy drinks or sugary drinks unless on special occasions”, and to continue on my healthy eating and exercising regime which to be fair I started properly about 18 months ago and although I’m not quite as strict on my diet I am still going well with that. I every so often crave something bad and if I do I will eat it but mostly I enjoy eating well as I feel unwell if I don’t eat properly.

I hope 2015 is a very happy year for you all

Crazy Cat Lady xx

September Fun

September is the beginning of Spring here in New Zealand and my family was lucky enough to welcome my parents first grandchild, my nephew Charlie into the world. He was ten days early and quite tiny but is such a cutie. I haven’t met him yet as they live in the South Island but I do have a short trip planned in a month to meet my nephew and his lovely mother, my future sister in-law.

I moved house at the end of June and am now facing moving again soon. The owner of our house is having financial difficulty so is putting the house on the market. The couple I live with got engaged a couple of months ago so they are going to find a home of their own, and I thought this is the perfect opportunity to live on my own (with the cats). I’m excited to live on my own but not overly keen on the packing, moving and unpacking part! Mum told me to write down my ideal new abode so here goes universe; my requirements are as follows: safe area, within my meagre budget, same distance to work as now (ten minutes drive), cat friendly, not on a main road, quiet street, off street car parking, a separate bedroom to living/kitchen area, clean and tidy, not damp and mouldy, so a sunny warm spot. I think that’s it!

The cats were friends for a few weeks after we moved as they arrived at the same time and were let out of their travel cages at the same time. But the hierarchy has returned but the fights aren’t as often or violent which pleases me. They went through a stage of vomiting up their food on a daily, actually on a meal to meal basis. Ugh so gross! So now they have different meat and less biscuits and no vomiting! The fat one is even fatter, I picked her up the other day and thought to myself “gees, you’ve put in a kilo in a week!” So think she’s eating the other ones food haha

It’s time to get ready for the All Blacks vs Argentina rugby game so this ends my blog for today. My goal for the rest of the year is to write more often, so we will see how that goes.

Crazy Cat Lady xx

Eventful May

Hello lovely people,

I hope you are all having a lovely weekend :) I woke up yesterday feeling absolutely terrible, like I’d been on a bender and hadn’t quite slept off the drunk or worked into the hangover. I didn’t drink on Friday night! I rarely drink these days and when I do *touch wood* I don’t get hungover or wake up drunk as I only have a few instead of having a few to start the night out! I woke up initially at 8am and fed the cats who had politely waited until then to start miaowing and scratching at my door and in general being a nuisance. I then stumbled back to my bed to wake at 11.30am. This is unheard of for me, especially as I’d been asleep before midnight Friday so that was A LOT of sleep for someone who regularly gets 6 hours and thinks that 6 hours of unbroken sleep is the work of a magician. I forced myself up and to have breakfast, and get on with my day. Which was to go and do the grocery shopping, then picked up my flatmate and our friend and we went to get our nails done. My flatmate and I were not quite as excited as our friend; he has been asking us for about three weeks “when are we getting our nails done?” so the fact that we FINALLY went made his week, perhaps even month haha No he’s not gay even though my other flatmate proceeded to tell him this must be a sign of that. My friend and flatmate got pedicures, I rudely (instant response) said “NO” when the lovely lady at the nail salon asked if I was too, I instead just got a gel manicure. I think I have a phobia of feet, or surrounding feet. I HATE with all my being having my feet touched, the few times I’ve sprained my ankle has been unbearable on more than one level when at physiotherapy as of course it hurts but more painful is the having my foot touched! I kick, I scream, I threaten, all of this is the instant and very strong reaction to the whole thing. The thought of having a pedicure makes my skin crawl and watching my friends get theirs done has assured me I made the right decision. Not only that the amount of dead skin that is peeled off is just disgusting. I also hate other people’s feet. I’m sorry but feet are not pretty, they are not something to be enthused by, they are useful and get us from A to B and we can adorn them with magnificent shoes but they are not pretty and I do not want to know about your feet. So aside from that it was quite a pleasant Saturday. We then made bruschetta (our version of) for a very late lunch before cooking spaghetti and meatballs for dinner and then brownie for dessert. That was not a “clean” meal at all! 

Today I have been watching online TV – 2 Broke Girls has my attention at the moment, and of course Big Bang Theory. I am in need of a new show to watch online though so any suggestions gratefully received. I don’t like Game of Thrones, I’ve fallen asleep watching it about four times now and it just doesn’t interest me. I’m about to attempt Breaking Bad or Orange is the New Black but keen to hear about any others.

My good friend moved back from the UK late last year and was intending on being here to stay. Last night she told me she’s off again at the end of May and her leaving do is next Saturday so as sad as it will be to say goodbye it will be fun to see everyone and say goodbye (for the second time). She’s either going to Germany or Ireland. Germany is her first choice if she can get a job but apparently it is tricky to get a job there if you don’t speak German – she does not. 

In addition to my online TV watching (I’m not normally this lazy but as I am STILL recovering from my head cold / flu I am having yet another “rest day” and will get back into exercise tomorrow) I’ve been online looking at google images of ombre hair styles. I decided I need a change and a bit of “sprucing up” as my Dad would say. I’ve got long(ish) dark brown hair and haven’t coloured it for at least 6 months and haven’t cut it for even longer. My regrowth (thankfully) is only a few shades lighter than the bulk of the hair so it’s not the horrendous look it could be. I was going to wait and see what my natural colour is once it gets longer but I don’t know that I can! I’m hopeful that a talented hair dresser can take it back to the natural brunette and then we can ombre over that. I also don’t know if my wallet will handle it haha Time will tell I guess.

As for my title “eventful May” it appears that everything is happening in May. My friends leaving party, then the following weekend I’ve been invited to two different 21st birthday parties and also a “cool kids” outing with my work buddies. Work buddies win on this account as at 27 I find myself thinking “I’m too old for this shizz” when I go to 21st’s. But really that’s just a poor excuse to bow out of attending. One of them is a 1920’s theme and I definitely do NOT want to dress up. I don’t know why, ordinarily I get into it and dress up in theme but I just don’t want to. The other 21st is held at a friends house and I think they are trying to boost numbers as I don’t even know the birthday girl! So that is my third option for that evening, possibly even fourth after the staying home option!

Anyway that’s about it from me, have a lovely rest of your weekend.

Crazy Cat Lady xx

Easter Weekend

Happy Easter everyone! 

I’ve had a pretty good weekend so far, Friday just hung out at home and watched a flatmate move out and another move in (was quietly pleased to not be required to assist!). The new flatmate is another’s girlfriend so we now have a spare room and the house has a harmonious feel. The flatmate who left doesn’t get along with the fourth of our group – stupid argument which myself and the only guy in the flat found hilarious but apparently is quite serious to these two. 

Yesterday I got up early and with the new flatmate we did our grocery shopping. I may have to take the hit on my Saturday sleep in and get up early so I’m at the supermarket on opening as it’s so calm and quiet and all the good stuff is still there! The fruit & vege shop had only just opened by the time we got there but the produce we scored is the best I’ve gotten in a while (and I haven’t purchased any substandard) so looking forward to a week of uber fresh salads and bananas! Not together, that would be weird.

I then braved an outlet mall and was unsuccessful in my mission to find better running shoes so then went to another smaller group of shoes and found the perfect shoes. In my head I had criteria of what is required as I’m sure some of the shin splints and pain I get in my feet is from the shoes or rather lack of support in current shoes as they are old – still in good condition and a good pair for the gym but not really up to scratch for 8km walks. So new shoes purchased I went home for a 3 hour nap :O It was great!

Last night I went out with a group of friends to dinner and then the comedy club in Auckland. I had a few drinks, not too many but a few. My stomach isn’t happy with me today. I’m unsure if it’s from the lack of food during the day yesterday, the alcohol (as I very rarely drink) or the different (yet super tasty) food I ate last night, OR the mcdonalds I ate at midnight as the entire car load was hungry; dinner had been at 7pm and we had sat through two shows of comedy and were “starving”. I didn’t sleep well, but don’t feel to tired today which is nice. My knee hurts a little as I’d worn heeled boots so may need to work on that a little. I’m proud that I went out and managed to have a few drinks without over doing it and today I am feeling great (aside from sore stomach). I had intended on coming home to go down the road (like three houses) to a mates for more drinks and even purchased a bottle of wine to take with me. I thought better of this at 1am as I was finishing my quarter pounder and went to bed instead – I think this was a very wise and mature thought to have had at 1am hehe perhaps I’m becoming responsible in my old age ;)

I hope everyone has a great rest of their Easter Weekend, be safe and have fun.

Crazy Cat Lady xx

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