Wow it’s amazing how quickly things can change and in some cases unravel.
I HAVE A JOB!! A new job that is. I phoned the manager of a sister company Friday a week ago to enquire about a role he had available doing a similar sort of role but more on the labour side of things rather than manufacturing. He rang me back; told me about the job, we agreed on a salary package that suited me and hours I’d be doing. He said no need for an interview he’s known me for five years. So we hung up with him saying he would email a job description (which he did) and would phone the following week to see how I felt. He rang Wednesday last week and asked what I thought of the job, I said “seems pretty good” and his reply was “cool, jobs yours if you want it” and that was that. The contacts arrived Thursday and I resigned on Friday.
Friday wasn’t a good day at work for me; my boss was actually in shock. He couldn’t speak when I handed him my letter. A few hours later after telling my friends there and the people who I care about (everyone was happy for me) my boss asked for a chat. He then starts off telling me how he thinks of his staff as family and how my resignation upset him and shocked him. He had more of a spiel planned but clearly read my face and decided to cut to the chase. He told me he had been “reconsidering” my application for the management role I applied for and to not take this as a knee-jerk reaction but genuine. Now I don’t know about anyone else but for me if someone has to tell me they are genuine that is a good indicator they are not. I told him that I had made up my mind and wouldn’t be staying. He wisely chose to end the chat there.
My best friend at work resigned today. He was always going to and it came as no shock to anyone. He got a job with a different sister company. According to the rumour mill it is my fault he resigned. That amuses me and pisses me off in one. Amusing as this guy was going to leave regardless of what I did; admittedly we did think it would be awesome to resign at the same time as we hope that proves our point (realistically we know it won’t) but pisses me off as I had no part in his decision. Yes we talked to each other about how we were feeling and how we wanted to leave. I think someone overheadrd a conversation we had friday when he was telling me how he was offered my role but slightly altered to include a bit more logistics. I simply said” think carefully if you do take it as you know how hard that will be, it will be terrible. If you stay make sure there are clear guidelines and agreements in place. I wouldn’t do it”. At that time the person who accused me of encouraging my friend to leave walked past where we were. It was a stupid place to have a private conversation and at that time we didn’t realise that I’d have to be so careful. They are definitely watching me and I’ve been asked to not be so negative about work. I don’t recall being negative but fair enough if they think that then I guess I have to make damn sure I’m nothing but positive. My friend laughs at the idea that it was me making him leave, as did the blabbermouth who told me that. I was just speaking to another manager (in Palmy) who roared laughing and said “we all knew he was going to leave, you were the wild card my friend. Don’t worry about it”. Easy to say when it’s not your character people are insulting!
My other work buddies are sad. One of my buddies is 68 and such a lovely little old man. He came to me today to tell me he is very upset with me because I’m leaving him. Anyone would think I’m dying or never going to be seen again. I live so close to work and will be in contact with them a lot as my new work buys from current work. Nice to know that I’ll be missed. I also can’t really tell any customers due to my contract about not soliciting customers. I would never do that but given the current state of play with these people I’m letting the blabbermouth guy in the factory to tell everyone. I asked him today to make sure he tells everyone.
I’m so angry though; I have busted my ass and gone above and beyond for the past five years and I feel like the last few months I’ve had all that thrown back in my face. My application for that management role wasn’t even decline with respect, just in a meeting in passing saying I wasn’t suitable and that my immediate manager would be there for the next year or so. Then they keep interviewing candidates. Then I resign and he tells me he was reconsidering my application. No, that is not good enough. You should have given me that job when I applied, when I wanted it. Not because you realised how much I do and me going puts everyone under pressure. Then the office manager (person who accused me of being negative etc) tells me had she known I was going to leave she would have found me more to do. (My reasons for leaving were for something new, needing more to do etc). Again; too late. Why wait until someone resigns before offering them something you think they would like to do or would do well. I don’t get why people WAIT for these things to happen.
I have to learn to keep calm and keep my mouth shut for the next month. My Dad (bless him) told me a couple of things; 1. Eff them, they didn’t recognise your hard work before so why would you stay now that they are just realising? – good point Father dearest; they are only grasping at straws because they are desperate. 2. Don’t tell them the full reason why you’re going, it will drive them crazy speculating. Also a very good point, and well put as I am a bit passive aggressive so that is right up my alley of just using my resignation as my aggression. Also I’d like to leave on a high note, although that is fast slipping away with their ridiculous thoughts about me.
I had a phone call today from one of my new crew, he seemed to have drawn the short straw of finding out if the rumour they heard of me going to them was true. I confirmed that and he was so excited; yelling in my ear and talking so fast I have no idea what he said. I think they are happy it’s me as they know they will be in capable hands. The best way to describe him is “excitable puppy” that’s the impression I got, that he was jumping up and down with excitement. That phone call came at the right moment, cheered me up and made me realise that I’ve made the right decision. I will be sad to leave my crew and I will be sure to make an effort to come back and see them or call them. The boys are already making sure we are having a leaving do of some sort as they want to say goodbye properly. I think perhaps an excuse to drink? But a nice thought nonetheless.
So it’s with a mixture of excitement, anger and sadness that I am writing this. I’m excited for a new job and new adventures. I love a challenge and have a real thirst for knowledge. I’m angry that they have treated me with such disrespect and think so little of me, and I’m angry with myself for expecting better. The sadness comes from knowing there are some people I’ll miss seeing every day and also from their sadness that I will not be there. The anger is going and I hope it does go very quickly as anger (well this level of anger) gives me quite bad headaches and I don’t want or need that. So this blog was to let go of some of that anger. The next one may be a letter to my boss haha
Have a lovely week folks, take care and be happy
Crazy Cat Lady xx